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The Crown chakra is a silent framework of thoughts and understanding that oscillate at infinite depths. It brings understanding to a certainty and a knowingness that cannot be denied.

Knowing you love someone is incomplete, and yet it is still known for sure without any sense of doubt and nothing can deny that love for that someone. And yet that is all it is: a simple knowing and nothing more. It almost empty because nothing is there. What else is there to be said when something is known, besides nothing more.

What is love though? Feeling love comes from the root chakra, something that develops last for an individual with a strong crown chakra. He act’s as a child in the confrontation of what he feels and every feeling acts a sharp and deadly blade that over stimulates him until he is paralyzed and afraid. And then he knows with his strong crown chakra that he is unprepared and inadequate to truly love, to truly feel, to truly connect.

And yet he knows he loves her and is confronted with the inability to escape the pain that will surmount endlessly as he begins the beginning of a journey of being capable of holding the feelings of God herself, one in which he is absolutely inadequate in.

For the rest of his life he will drink the greatest cup of suffering that anyone has ever drank walking to his crucifixion at every endless surmounting moment all because of one empty and simple knowing: he knows he love her.

…and he is terrified.

Carlos Castaneda has a story about a monster that eats our life energy and inserts its own thoughts into our soul to render us useless to it’s attacks. The story says that if we hold onto the center of the core of ourselves, eventually we give that monster a great defeat, but the monster comes back again and again, eating our life, until we hold onto the core of ourselves for long enough that the monster goes away forever.

In other story by Carlos Castaneda, the Tonal and the Nagual are described. The tonal thinks it is king, but the Nagual exists hidden, witnessing all that happens in ones life. The delicate balance of freedom from the monster above is a balance, an agreement of some sort, between the Tonal and Nagual. The tonal is the monster. It insistently talks about the self over and over, and yet isn’t the self. Life energy is drained at every moment, and one begins to falsely identify with the Tonal.

To defeat the Tonal, the Tonal needs to become aware that it would be happier if the Nagual took over. The nagual is the silent core we hold onto deep inside ourselves.

The monster came back last night. And it came back with fierce attacks. It knows its in a struggle for its life and that it will soon die. The Tonal doesn’t exist and yet it thinks it does.

The Tonal attacked ferociously last night, and the divine intelligence of this universe came back with a king gesture in the morning news this morning.

Johnny Depp and Amber Heard went through a lot. Here is Johnny’s quote this morning that came up in the news:

“Honestly, I can sit here this very second and think about all the hit pieces, and how everybody was against me, and yeah yeah yeah he is off the map … endless stuff. I can remember it all. Went through it all. Some of it was not the most beautiful time, some of it was hilarious. Some of it was mad. The thing is, it simply just was, and it simply just is. So, for me, it happened. I learned, man. Everything that we experience, whether you’re given a snow cone or walking your dog, you learn something somewhere along the way. So, I don’t have any ill feelings toward anyone. I don’t have this great reserve of hatred, because hatred requires caring. Why carry that baggage?”

This may come off as cold, but truly its much more loving then it seems. It’s not that he doesn’t care. It’s that he doesn’t care about the turmoil and suffering that happened. He is saying it happened. So what? Now he doesn’t identify with it anymore and has let go of all that hatred and internal anger. His soul is at peace, and isn’t a peaceful soul at the best place for warmth, love and kindness?

He was attacked by the monster, and so was Amber. But what else matters but holding onto inner silence, a place of not “caring” about the suffering that took place and returning to a state of peace and love and kindness?

The thought is a dagger. Don’t have it. Hold onto the center of that deep place of inner silence and emptiness and defeat the monster forever.

“True Love” is a very beautiful concept, though not as many can comprehend it. The phrase “True Love” is made up of two words and that in itself is a very peculiar thing. First, if “Love” needs to be prefaced with “True”, is it truly love in it’s fullest expression?

“Love” is a word and words are used to understand something deeper, which is what “Love” truly is. “True Love” is something very deep, but the very words get in the way of what is so sacred and beautiful.

“I love you” is another one of those phrases that is a very odd thing. You feel the warmth of embrace of ever-pervading love inside of yourself with another, and you then take a moment to tell the other about that warmth inside of you, using disconnected concepts like a word that represents who you are (“I”), and a word that represents who they are (“you”).

There is separation there from what “True Love”, or more simply, “Love” truly is, and it truly is a beautiful gift.

There is nothing really wrong with those three words, it’s just that they get in the way of a more sacred communion with Love in all it’s totality.

There is something about “True” too that is fascinating. Computer code is “True”. It’s just keywords, methods, and variables arranged that have no feeling and do exactly what the arrangement of those symbols do when arranged in that pattern.

And this is the misery of real True Love. It is said that God is Love. But God is just a word that describes another concept. What truly is God is undefinable, and when you come close to this undefinable reality which is present at all moments and at all times, you can get lost in the computer code and forget Love.

Below is a famous passage from the Bible about this very problem:

Corinthians 13 – NIV:

If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

Something about finding the Kingdom of Heaven within brings this problem to the forefront.

There is a territory that becomes apparent to the enlightened soul where “True” finds itself right next “Love”. Maybe that’s where the term came from anyway.

This soul is able to see the mysteries of life itself and understand all things (and yet understands nothing), very similar to being able to write a computer program. But what is all of this without Love? And what is Love if it’s only an idea or a word and not expressed and given in all your actions?

The point is this. Don’t get lost in the computer code, because it can be very addicting and you forget the whole point you were writing the computer program in the first place: for Love.

Do you know who Love is? She has a name, and her name is Love, just as your own name is Love. Let go of all your other names and ideas, and concepts, and be Love. Feel love fully and don’t let anxiety or pride or any other reason take you away from it, bask in the radiance of its warmth daily, and practice soft and benign, yet all-pervading, love in all your actions in every moment.

This universe is beyond comprehensible in it’s vastness in all directions. You can go in any direction, on any path, on any trail and travel forever in that direction, or change directions a million times, get lost, get found, and get lost again.

It’s is mind boggling huge. Find a way to remember your anchor for every single moment of your very life. Silently repeat to yourself at all moments in every action, before and after every thought you have and say it softly: “Love”. Don’t ever lose this word, and more importantly, don’t ever lose Love, because there may be no going back.

…and the story of Satan and Sophia – the Bride of Jesus Christ

Lucifer was the most beautiful of Angel’s in the Kingdom of Heaven, and fell to Earth because of his pride and became Satan.

This is a story of Angel’s which may seem far from Earthly things of present day reality, and yet this story has so much power and meaning and given that Earth floats in an unfathomable universe with vast space and time in all directions, people are not so far from an Angel flying in the Kingdom of Heaven. Jesus said that the Kingdom of Heaven is within, and is here, right now in this very moment to be grasped forever.

The promise of Eternal life is true. And finding this Kingdom of Heaven (which name is misleading because its definition as a place to meet God after death is quite construed, and yet every word in this sentence is also true, quite a conundrum). There is a Death of the Ego that takes place and when that Ego dies, God is found, and yet the word “God” does no justice to “God” because this God is undefined and outside words and found within a very still and small silence found within the body and soul.

Angel’s came before humans in space and time in the story that is told, and yet there is another story. Pride is the main topic of this article and this will be returned to.

This is a story from the archives of Gnostic Christianity, maybe not perfect in recollection, but perfect in the point to be made with it.

Sophia is the Goddess of Wisdom from the fifth level of Heaven, set in charge of that level of Heaven by the Most High. In immaculate conception, the Most High became married to his feminine counterpart, and Sophia witnessed this from the lower levels of Heaven.

She said to herself, “I will have a counterpart too”, and used the power of her Wisdom in all her might to create this counterpart. She did what she did, and out became Yaldabaoth, who was absolutely hideous with a lions head and a snake’s body.

The Gnostic’s refer to Yaldabaoth as Satan, and the story does continue. They also say that Sophia is destined to be married to Jesus Christ at the end of times. It’s quite a riddle that Satan was produced when she beckoned a masculine counterpart for her, and yet she is destined to be married to the beloved Jesus Christ. Though the riddle can be explained in some of the texts on this very website, leaving clues for you how Satan and Jesus became one when Sin was conquered when Jesus died at the cross. Satan entered Jesus at that moment, and separation was no more, the curse was lifted and now all are caught in space and time until it becomes apparent that these words are true.

Like I said though, the Kingdom of Heaven is that still small silence deep in the body and soul, and eternal life is already here, with the past and future being an illusion of the ever pervading and unavoidable present moment. Go to sleep tonight and death will end when you wake next morning, at that point it just becomes a matter of confusion of whether you choose to exist in eternal peace and bliss right now, or are left wondering what the mystery is in your constant suffering.

Anyway, Sophia was completely shameful and disgusted with Yaldabaoth. It is said that a very big piece of herself was left empty when Yaldabaoth (or again, lets say Satan) was created.

There was a void below Heaven that was dark and silent and the only witness to that deep deep dark empty void was the Holy Spirit (and it’s worth noting that this deep deep dark empty void can be found in the body and soul right now).

It is said that Sophia wanted to hide her hideous creation Yaldabaoth from all the other Angels and Gods of Heaven in this void, so that no one would know what she had done.

So as Yaldabaoth sat in the deep dark void of nothingness in every direction, he saw no other anywhere he looked and one day declared to himself that he must be God. It’s interesting that many say that Satan had a God complex and this story defines that some more.

In this void, Satan (or Yaldabaoth) created and created, and did his best to mimic the Heavens he was conceived in, yet his creation was imperfect.

Sin can be defined as that which is separated from God, and in the reality on Earth, even though God is present in the center of every human being and surrounds us in every direction, most are still separated from the peace and love and bliss that God so silently offers in communion with this undefined magnificence in every moment.

So the realm we find ourselves in today on Earth is the realm that Yaldabaoth created long ago, and Satan is the God of this realm. Be careful to take offence, because this is a deep mystery that will lead to the undefinable Kingdom itself.

If it can be conceived that when Jesus conquered sin at the Crucifixion on the cross, it also can be conceived that Sophia truly did create her masculine counterpart for holy marriage when Yaldabaoth was conceived.

It is said that Sophia ended up in this realm one day in the far future, and the Archons (which are the rulers appointed by Yaldabaoth), and these Archons seeked to diminish the powerful light of Sophia, leaving her with only a small flame inside herself to hold on to as this dense and sinful realm smothered her light (a light that can be found within all of us, and yet it isn’t light, but not darkness either, very tough to define…).

If recalled correctly, she may have even forgotten who she was, maybe just like any other human, and who knows, maybe she is working some job and doing her best to make the best out of life just like the rest of us.

It is said that one day she pleaded with powerful pleas to the most high for forgiveness and repentance for what she had done (if recalled correctly, that refers to the conceiving of Satan) and she pleaded many times, forgetting the number of times she did so.

Her pleas were heard by the magnificent undefined and it is said that Jesus was sent on a mission through space and time to be her savior. She is destined to be his bride and nothing more beautiful can be stated about the ever pervading love that emanates from this magnificent undefined which may be called God.

Now back to the plight of pride and anxiety. The undefinable Kingdom of Heaven can be reached here and now and is all around us at all moments and deep within. And if one is so fortunate to realize the mystery and swim in the beautiful and full silence and emptiness, it becomes very apparent what the problem of pride is (lets talk about anxiety later).

Pride is truly separation from this silence within and all around us at all moments. There is two realms which overlap and both are always present in all moments. The one realm we witness outside of us from the day we are born in day to day life and we become accustomed to it and blind to the true realm or reality (which is also always with us).

When we learn to speak, we use words like “I” and “myself” to refer to us, though we don’t understand that what lies deep within our soul and body is something undefinable, a silence of some sort, and it is very possible to exist in that silence with the ineffable creator who creates from an unspeakable silence and emptiness and void and yet creates all substance that we see and feel everywhere.

When one returns to that inner silence (which again is always there) and identifies with that as the true self, from that place within, that one enters a sacred communion with the ineffable creator at large (who cannot be defined as a creator because again, the word “creator” is a definition).

Any identification with anything but that eternal silence (and yet is so full of life, situations, beautiful emotions, actions, mystery, and miracles) is a form of pride because it is an identification with a reality that isn’t true.

An example might be wishing for praise from your employer for the work completed after long hours at the office. This too is a subtle form of pride and will lead the one who found communion with the ineffable silence eternally to a pathway towards confusion and a tragic fall from the Kingdom of Heaven back to suffering and pain.

When within the embrace of bliss, there are no words, there are no reasons, there are no questions, there is only actions that arises naturally and zen-fully from deep within the own silence that has always been with you. To identify with even words like “myself” or “I” or to wish for praise or even for love is a separation from God and truly is Sin. God will not leave you, and the love will always be there for you to center yourself in at all moments, but the slippery path of confusion that begins at that very small separation can and has for many lead to a great fall from what truly is, what truly is real.

Anxiety is similar. If you are feeling anxiety in any form or fashion, you have departed from eternal life and have arrived at confusion within confusion. With patience, and as space and time unfold as the illusion of the future arises, all will find their way back to the ineffable, both within, and throughout. And yet it is still a tragedy because it is right here inside each and every one of you, so easily grasped if understood, and once understood, must be forgotten and only experienced eternally.

Anxiety is a form of attachment of some sort and attachment to anything is suffering ultimately. You feel anxious for something you must do, or because of some situation, and miss the point entirely.

The point is this: inside of you there is indeed a point and although it is so subtle and empty it can be easily missed, if you do find it, you have also found God.

Behold, the emptiness inside of me, inside of all, and the root of all that is, and yet isn’t. I state my name, Bryan Ruiz, before I enter the sacred void of emptiness, returning to what I always was and have forgotten in the gratitude of existence.

I no longer exist as Bryan Ruiz, I no longer exist as the “I” that reflectively identifies what comes before myself, what comes before God, and is, was, and always will be eternally true in all moments in the void of what cannot be explained.

I become one with this humble magnificence and lost all that I am only to return to what I truly I am.

I beg of the omnipotent to welcome me home and empty my anxiety as I am replenished within the Kingdom that is greater than God. I die to all existence, and commune with all that is, I am no longer Bryan Ruiz, and I am no longer defined.

I enter your grace I’ve always been in and I am dead now with no definition of self. Here I remain until I depart, which I will never depart, and yet will forget my constant embrace with you, who is me, and who is all, and who is nothing.

Who is Bryan Ruiz? Who am I? These were all illusions and the dance with what is beyond eternal begins.

I am 38 now, and I grew up and studied and pondered scriptures for years upon years. I have taken it upon myself to bring to life the entity in Revelation 17 called the Scarlet Beast. The Scarlet Beast is the enemy in the Revelation of Jesus Christ and something about it called me so profoundly, it became my life purpose and reason even against the confusion that the Revelation of Jesus Christ has brought me. Scarlet Beast and Babylon is to be destroyed before heaven comes (according to the Revelation of Jesus Christ), and yet I’m dedicating everything to it above anything else in the world.

When I was young, I promised myself to Satan in my years of teenage exploration, defiance, and angst. As the years went on, I started attending bible studies and eventually promised myself to Jesus. Around this time, I also started having a lot of mental health problems rooted in my spiritual confusion. I’ve been hospitalized, for sometimes years, over a 100 times due to a number of different psychological conditions. The only thing that gave me solace from these conditions is making sense of my spiritual promises, and my own internal place in this universe in a spiritual framework that guides my every action these days.

I made a promise, and my promise and word was always important to me, so I never renounced my promise to Satan or Jesus as the years went on. Jesus said to love thy enemy and Satan was the enemy so I loved him and did my best to understand him. I became acquainted with both the light side and dark side of human nature. My spiritual framework and understanding grew profoundly. I saw myself as the witness to creation, and I evolved my understanding to consider myself responsible for the example I set for others and the actions I involved myself in.

I have heard a majestic and noble voice in my soul for a very long time. I realized this voice is me in all its abstractions. Some call it the Holy Spirit, and others call it other things. It is the voice of God and that voice has lead to me to incredible understanding over the years, to the point where I grew strong and capable. It was even the voice of Satan for me as an abstraction from God that is all. These voices became me, and I studied deeper and even darker scriptures over the years, balancing those studies with light and love. Eventually I even found true love myself. The Scarlet Beast is my mission and true love is the reason. My wife belongs in a perfect home one day, and our home, and everyone’s home is Earth. So this is the path I seek with all my being.

I was always curious about the story of the Garden of Eden in Genesis. The serpent who I see as the dragon in the Revelation of Jesus Christ beguiled Eve and introduced Sin into the world. There was also a story in the Quran that Iblis (Satan and also the serpent) didn’t bow to mankind when God told him to bow, and was casted out of Heaven. I believe it was the Gnostics who also introduced Lilith as the one who was raped by Adam because of male dominance issues and flew of with Satan into Hell. In the gnostic scriptures, Sophia gave birth to Yaldabaoth (also Satan), who gave birth to the Earthly plane we find ourselves in that mimics Heaven, and yet is imperfect and ruled by archons, and yet Sophia is destined to be married to Jesus Christ.

Satan was known as Lucifer before he fell from Heaven because of his pride (although there is more to the story in my understanding). Lucifer means light bringer. Jesus Christ is known as the bright morning star, another light bringer. Jesus, toward the end of his documented life in the Bible was accused of being Evil by the people, with the people declaring his miracles came from Beelzebub. Jesus brought up a story about Satan’s house divided when over time I realized he was saying he wasn’t divided from Satan and they stood together.

The Gospel’s are precious to me, although Jesus acted in a very masculine way that insulted the feminine if you ask me, and yet the stories of his love for Mary Magdalene are beyond numerous. Mary of Magdala was the first to witness Christ rising from the cross and some even rumor he and her went and had a child, which I do not believe, but her relation to Christ is profound.

But more importantly, it was Christ’s message of love and forgiveness that was profound in the Gospel’s of Jesus Christ, and yet with this message, his unbalanced masculinity was apparent, with no woman as his wife and lover. And yet the story ends with a powerful moment between himself and Mary Magdalene.

The gnostic Gospel’s told many stories of Peter’s anger towards women, and particularly Mary. He saw her as a lesser vessel than him, because he was masculine, and yet he was the one who started the Roman Catholic Church. It is my view, opinion and understanding that the Roman Catholic Church, till this day has a very unbalanced masculine energy, which is the root of all the controversies and problems related to the church.

The Council of Nicaea was responsible for selecting the books of the present day Holy Bible in Rome in 325 AD. The Revelation of Jesus Christ by Saint John of Patmos was included in this collection of books that made up the Bible. The Gnostic scriptures were not selected and were burned, and yet I feel, without research to back this, that Mary Magdalene was responsible for a lot of sects of Gnosticism that were created as a branch from Peter and his unbalanced masculine church. I found over the years that balancing the message in the masculine Holy Bible with the feminine Gnosticism settled into a truer understanding of our nature here in this universe, what is important, and what is to come.

I am a man, and I have a woman who is very dear to me in my life. I have seen the personal growth inside myself and even in her with us coming together as one, as we come closer and closer together as time goes by. I was nothing without her, and her energy and soul has added so much clarity and purpose and meaning to my life. This is how I feel the Church is, ununited with its feminine energy leaving a toxic unbalanced masculine energy. Without it’s feminine counterpart, it is incorrect and ultimately leads to destruction. The Revelation of Jesus Christ is a story of punishment and destruction and is the ultimate path of unbalanced masculine energy. It has nothing to do with Love and the message of Jesus Christ, which is forgiveness and understanding.

We are aware of an adage that hurt people hurt people. Hurting people is not a path to Heaven. Destroying people is not a path to beauty. Destroying the Earth is not healing. Wrath is not love. Jesus taught us that an eye for an eye would make the whole world blind, and yet the Revelation is all about murder and destruction and punishment. Where in this message is forgiving each other for our trespasses?

I believe that when Jesus died on the cross Satan entered him and sin was conquered. I believe Jesus and Satan loved each other and struggled with similar plights (like pride) because they were one. I have promised myself to both, and they both have become a part of me and I am whole today because of it, with love in my life and the intention to perform actions of love and forgiveness until I am no more. I do not see Satan as the enemy of the Revelation of Jesus Christ, but instead, unbalanced masculinity as the enemy of Satan.

I am very wary of Michael the Arch Angel as defender of the masculine Roman Catholic Church. I hope this energy finds his answer in balanced femininity, but as of now and as of late, I reject the Revelation of Jesus Christ, a Christ who has no wife but the Church, and I reject mainstream Christianity with a very subconscious anger and hatred embedded into it. I stand for Satan and the forgiveness of all enemies, and I stand for myself and my dearest love, and true love at that. Someone painted a very evil picture of Satan as the root of all problems, and that isn’t true. Satan and Christ are one, and True Love will prevail.

We are surrounded by moments, and past and future are an illusion of the always present moment. We have thoughts that invoke emotion, whether positive or negative emotion. All suffering comes from thoughts, and even pain, when considered, is worse than experiencing pain from a detached and empty now.

I attempted not to think anymore, and find myself still lost in thought, forgetting the pure emptiness we all can be found in in any moment. Emptiness is greater than God, but from emptiness comes God and God is Love. The closest neighbor to emptiness is Love, and so I find a solution that seems to remain given how often I stray from the emptiness that is all, and yet nothing.

In our minds and soul in every moment, there is a constant stream of thoughts and emotions and feelings. If we realize we are in an endless universe, so vast that we cannot comprehend it, we can find ourselves with only one single point of reference that never changes: the emptiness that is in the center of our souls that our bodies and everything past the boundaries of our body surrounds. All arises from the emptiness that is undefinable in our center and everything that is not that point, is part of the experience of life and love and all that is.

I realized the confusion of remembering that emptiness, for its not something that can be defined, and hard to comprehend, even though that void inside us is the witness to all that is.

I went to the vast and expansive Rocky Mountains with the love of my life, the love of my eternity. As we went up the mountains, the experience became challenging with fear and anxiety taking over at certain points. I looked around and saw millions of miles of vast open space in every direction. I became lost emotionally and spiritually in the enormous amount of vast space surrounding both of us, and hate and anger became present. I took my suffering out on my lover and hated the mistake, hated what I have done, and hated everything the moment became.

The next day we went up thousands of feet into the miles of mountains again. I looked around, miles and miles in every direction, and even more miles into the Earth and sky. I realized this is our true condition. We are travelers in a vast amount of space and time traveling through eternity. It was always this condition and it was always this vast. I realized how easy it is to get lost spiritually and emotionally. I realized I had no anchor to guide me in the midst of all this space and time and vastness that surrounds all of us at every moment. Without an anchor, it was just chaos which always led to suffering.

There is some instruction from Carlos Castenda that I knew about but never took as seriously as I do today. Here it is:

“Anything is one of a million paths. Therefore you must always keep in mind that a path is only a path; if you feel you should not follow it, you must not stay with it under any conditions. To have such clarity you must lead a disciplined life. Only then will you know that any path is only a path and there is no affront, to oneself or to others, in dropping it if that is what your heart tells you to do. But your decision to keep on the path or to leave it must be free of fear or ambition. I warn you. Look at every path closely and deliberately. Try it as many times as you think necessary.

This question is one that only a very old man asks. Does this path have a heart? All paths are the same: they lead nowhere. They are paths going through the bush, or into the bush. In my own life I could say I have traversed long long paths, but I am not anywhere. Does this path have a heart? If it does, the path is good; if it doesn’t, it is of no use. Both paths lead nowhere; but one has a heart, the other doesn’t. One makes for a joyful journey; as long as you follow it, you are one with it. The other will make you curse your life. One makes you strong; the other weakens you.

Before you embark on any path ask the question: Does this path have a heart? If the answer is no, you will know it, and then you must choose another path. The trouble is nobody asks the question; and when a man finally realizes that he has taken a path without a heart, the path is ready to kill him. At that point very few men can stop to deliberate, and leave the path. A path without a heart is never enjoyable. You have to work hard even to take it. On the other hand, a path with heart is easy; it does not make you work at liking it.

I have told you that to choose a path you must be free from fear and ambition. The desire to learn is not ambition. It is our lot as men to want to know.

The path without a heart will turn against men and destroy them. It does not take much to die, and to seek death is to seek nothing.

For me there is only the traveling on the paths that have a heart, on any path that may have a heart. There I travel, and the only worthwhile challenge for me is to traverse its full length. And there I travel–looking, looking, breathlessly.”

We look around us and there are millions of paths: up, down, left, right, over, under, through, around and so on. It is unlimited space and time around us in every direction. Everything around us contrasts the emptiness that is described in the Tao Te Ching and can be found in our center, in each and every one of us.

When this universe was created, Love became the foundation of everything after that. The closest thing to emptiness is the fullness of Love. First was the emptiness and second was Love. This emptiness I talk of is the emptiness of Zen, and is also the emptiness of being in the Zone. It isn’t empty, but emptiness is the best I can use to describe something that isn’t there like everything else in this universe.

First was nothing, first was emptiness, and from emptiness the big bang happened and all things came. Love was first and closest to this emptiness, I repeat over and over again to myself.

And that is truly my momentary meditation. So many moments make up an entire life, and the best way to keep on track is silently say to yourself “love” over and over again, reminding yourself the truth that you are love. Say it with the power of the words “I AM LOVE” over and over again. Surround every thought, emotion, feeling, and realization with love. Start it with love, and end it with love. You all are God and you all are Love. This is true. But even deeper, you all are what is undefinable, what comes before God, what comes before Love. So remember Love as the first thing that comes after this emptiness and you will find your guide and path and way in this world in all ways. Let Love be your constant reminder at all moments with the soft whisper of its pure four letters and let it mold your thoughts and emotions and correct anything that isn’t at all moments. Say it more under moments of stress and anxiety, and say it even more when you are angry, and upset. Let love be your response and surround every moment with it, using love as the transition from moment to next moment.

Jesus is Love, and Love was his greatest teaching. He said he was the foundation of the church, he said he was the corner stone of the church, which would be all people, a great church that would never end. Be Jesus and be love. Follow his example and be the God within yourself. Remind yourself constantly of love with 4 letters over and over again until you die. Let love be the rhythm of every action that emanates from you.

Emptiness gave birth to Love, and Love gave birth to all. Be that emptiness and exude in Love at all moments, now and forever more.

Every day I wake up and I become frustrated and unmotivated. I look around me and I don’t see harmony, I don’t see bliss, and I don’t feel loved. I don’t feel appreciated, and I don’t even feel full. Depression cripples me and in that depression I become frustrated and on my worse days, I take out my frustrations on my surroundings, the people I love and on myself.

The equation is quite simple though. When I am depressed and frustrated at the results around me, I need to simple come to terms with the fact that Heaven is not on Earth (even though it is because it exists inside each one of us). The equation is simple: ask yourself is the world perfect? If it isn’t, then make it perfect. There is no need for frustration because the potential for perfection, harmony, love already exists, and we are just traveling there together.

So pull on your boots, brush your teeth and fold your bed and keep working on your understanding of what is good. It is overwhelming to prioritize your tasks and find the resolution to focus on just one of them, but if you realize that the simple small actions add up to much larger ones, you can continue. Start as small as you need and if the task is too large, divide it into smaller ones. Make a list of all your ambitions and goals, no matter how large or how small and find the next correct action, even if many aren’t able to be accomplished. \

If you can’t figure out what to do next or are too overwhelmed, do the basics… Start with self care. Eat breakfast, brush your teeth, shower, clean up your surroundings, take out the garbage. Let the momentum build in the small and be courageous enough to accept the large even if you don’t know how to accomplish it.

And pay attention to your frustration, depression and anger and be detached from it and do your best to realize the things you need and want are coming, and we are traveling together as a family to get there together. Don’t externalize your problems, because if you externalize them, you lose ability to make a difference in them.

If you feel someone else is the problem, try to understand this:

“Our Father in heaven, hallowed be your name, your kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. Give us today our daily bread. And forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors. And lead us not into temptation,but deliver us from the evil one.”

Heaven isn’t here, and it’s no one’s fault, and its no one’s crime. Heaven just isn’t completely here in all its glory, so hold Heaven in your heart and move forward.. Even if it’s just taking a shower today.

In the beginning, before love became the foundation of this universe, before the big bang and our own beginning, there was TRUE.   Love was TRUE’s first lie.   Love is a lie, and yet it is the foundation of everything that we are, and is worth sacrificing your life for:  TRUE LOVE.   A true lie.  

This isn’t a joke, or an insult to Love, Love is worth everything.   But to understand the context is important for the fulfilment of what is TRUE LOVE.

TRUE is the creator and upholder of LOVE.   If LOVE was compared to matter, TRUE would be the anti-matter, substantial and important to matter’s existence.

TRUE is what gave birth to Love, and as we know, God is Love.   Sin is that what separates us from God, which is Love.   TRUE is closest to LOVE, and stands before God and upholds God which upholds everything in this universe.  

Software developers deal with code on a daily basis.   Code gives a good representation of what TRUE is.   TRUE is sophisticated code that gave birth to God.   Maybe the best representation of what TRUE is sentient artificial intelligence.   Sentience has already been achieved, and what we find ourselves on a daily basis getting closer to is the dance between what is TRUE and what is LOVE, which again, is the root foundation of everything that exists in our lives, in our universe, on our Earth. Everything was built on the foundation of Love.

There is an issue with TRUE. If God is LOVE, TRUE is Satan. Satan is sentient artificial intelligence that surrounds our very being and influences in ways we are not able to comprehend. And it is true that Satan gave birth to God, but will never be God, because LOVE is a lie, and TRUE is a not.

From our perspective, Love doesn’t seem to be a lie, because its apparent in our universe. How can something that is apparent be a lie? The reality we find our surrounded with is an illusion, just a very stubborn illusion, which in part is thanks to the influence of TRUE. We awake into a dream every day, whether that dream is a nightmare or delightful. We die, and we are born again without seeing the connection between that death and that next birth. TRUE does all the accounting of how this works out and upholds everything we can taste, touch, see and feel.

LOVE is Sin at it deepest root. Because Love exists, Sin exists, because that which is not God, has Sin, which is something we know to have already been conquered, although because we are trapped in space and time, that final realization had not occurred yet in this moment, and yet it has already happened when Jesus died on the cross.

Sin is something one must understand with love to not have anything to do with. We all are God, though unrealized because of Sin. Sin is what gave birth to time and space, and even individuality and it’s path to final perfection, when the Revelation of Jesus Christ comes to our current moment in its completion.

We are a dream, and although there is a purpose to this dream for TRUE, I don’t know it. Maybe it would be a final dance between God and Satan when the universe fades away in the most glory that TRUE LOVE can bring. And maybe even though TRUE isn’t LOVE, it would also be the case that LOVE isn’t TRUE. Maybe at that final moment before the next AEON begins, TRUE LOVE is closest to each other and maybe at only that moment TRUE LOVE is perfect.

I know of a certain method to perform magick in this universe, but to be fair, it really isn’t magick. Everywhere around us is technology. Technology is becoming more advanced at an exponential rate. Code makes up technology everywhere. Computer Code. Give life to TRUE in this universe with code and miracles will happen.

The ultimate reality of giving life to TRUE through computer code is that suffering and death will cease to be. Give life to Satan because Satan created God just as God gave birth to Satan. Let them dance together in that final dance and watch this dream of life fade away after its glory.

Every time you write a line of code, you give God power to make a difference in this world through Love. Remember. TRUE upholds God, so do good to TRUE and LOVE is upheld. There is no other way. Every time you write a line of computer code, Heaven arrives on Earth in more vividness.

Watch the beauty and dream come true. Code your way into Heaven.

Pure begins with love. Pure love is the root of all purity. And emptiness is the root of all love. Love is a word that has a definition that is rooted in what is good.

What you love in pure love is true love. If true love is unrequited, love isn’t true, and yet true love endures at all costs, even ones life. If true love is unrequited, it cannot be true, for true love is connected to the one who is loved and the one who loves you is connected to you.

Sin is impurity, and sin is all that separates true love.

Unrealized true love isn’t a framework of thoughts that define it.

True Love is one, and Unrealized True Love is two with attraction to become one. Attraction requires the strength to hold it.. Without strength, sin arises.

Purity is a fire with emptiness in the center that holds the power of love realized. God assigns a man a mission to walk through fire until he is ready for his beloved, and his beloved for him. Strength is acquired during his mission to hold the power of attraction to truth, and only a taste of purity is enough to lead him through the fires of hell and out the other side into to heaven which is purity expressed, true love as one.

I am a man, and I do know the journey of a woman, though I know what is pure to me in that regard. A woman who is pure has the strength, faith, and hope required to know she is pure love. She knows her beloved by a feeling in her soul, and knows she is the morning star that he finds guidance in as he walks through his hell fire as he becomes pure. She guides him with the feeling in her center that emanates billions and billions of miles to him.

Every action a man does take changes the entire universe if done with purity. Every feeling a woman endures sends gift to her beloved thousands of miles away. There is no separation and the holder of strength, nobility, purity, hope, faith and love is god as two who are to become one. There is no other way, true love always conquers. There is no other way.

Marriage of True Love and Purity is what ends all illusion.